Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its trouble, It empties today of its strength.

I'm nobody

Have been thinking too much about myself. I thought I could do whatever I want, go wherever I want, and everyone should be nice to me just like I'm nice to them. I get upset whenever somebody misunderstands or disagrees with me, or when I can't have my way. I pray to God most of the time only when I'm in need or in difficulties. It's always about me. But who am I to expect love and respect from everyone? What have I contributed to earn all the gifts and freedom I have? I did nothing. And I am nobody but an empty shell without the help, support, tolerance, and love from my friends and parent. I thought I was thankful and contented, I want to share my joy with everyone. But I'm also acting like a baby, constantly needing people to spoil and take care of. Yes I am spoiled. I am too lucky to be surrounded by all these great people, that I naturally took it for granted. I have relied too much on you all. I'm sorry if I've been too selfish or impatient, but seriously you guys mean so much to me and give me energy to live on. I love you all and smile because of you.

what are my values?

care too much about what others think, so afraid of being judged
can't express myself, tired of trying so hard to please everyone and still be misunderstood

i did it just because i saw u,  for a person that I would probably never meet again...

autumn makes me nostalgic.. ppl and things that i care about just seep into my mind, i've to shun it, coz it makes me feel weak and insecure.. when will i get what i really need? will i ever?

do ppl have to make others look stupid to show that they're smart?